I. Trusted. You.

I think I wrote this 3 years ago. But, I can't remember why.
Oh, Happy New Year btw, lol.

We were friends... or...at least I thought we were
I had no doubt in my mind until I found out the truth.
You found the need to lie about me, to prove to them,
to prove to yourself, that you were still... a MAN.
So the secret lay buried... hidden behind closed doors
Never to be shed light on, until you fucked up.
You see,
the biggest misconception is that I'm attracted to you.
Apparently we need to examine this falsity and discover the truth.
I thought you always had my back.
I felt I could always count on you.
You lied to me, to my face.
I'd rather you shoot me in the face, I mean,
It would hurt less.
You see, people will always talk about you
all the time... but YOU???

We were brothers from diff mothers
AND YOU FUCKED IT ALL UP!
You told me things nobody knew
only to find out you told people things about me
that weren't even true...
but apparently I knew... and clearly so did you.
You passed it off as the truth because you were the proof
... that I was nothing but a homo.
The brother with the father you never had
who felt bed when you always got mad
because your mother used to beat you.
I held your secrets dear to me
Because I never wanted to be
The one who betrayed you, like you did to me.

To make matters worst, it was a lie
That I wasn't even there to deny
The rumors that you spread about me.
So I'm going to ask you this,
The last thing I ever plan on doing
The last time I speak to you
The last time I address you

The next time you want to make
Yourself look better
Remember to take a good look in the mirror
Because self-improvement only comes from within.

In any sense, I think it's interesting and just a lil look into how I react to some things. Hmmm. Lol

Peace and blessings and a Happy New Year
Joseph